Dear Leon!
… hej M …
I am happy we made promise to each other to be happy and together ever after.
… I love to call you my dearest one …
I solemnly declare to talk to you every day and share my thoughts with you in person.
… I will not write to you anymore because I will tell you all happenings that are going on in my head …
Let us start living our life just for each other.
… be only mine and I will be just yours …
Love you very much!
… love you to the moon and back …
Maria
Leon
Dear Leon!
We are getting used to our life. Spending so much time with you and knowing it will be just us for the rest of our lives is something I wish for and I something that makes me dizzy. I want that and I am scared of our future. Every day I try to focus only on the moment we are in.
It is not easy as it was the beginning of my life with my husband. But with you I am much more happy and much more me. I like myself when I am with you.
I hope you will never give up on us. I know you also have different thoughts and feelings about our life together. Let happy moments guide our life!
I love you very much!
Kisses and some more kisses!
Maria
… hey M …
… I used to know how to be alone and quite ok with my life … now I have let all of you in … my daughter, you, your children … I started to enjoy the company … I am a bit confused now that there are just two of us … suddenly I miss the crowd around me … I feel I am an old grumpy man …
… love you very much …
… you mean the whole world to me …
… stay well, stay you and bear with me …
L
Dear Leon!
It is hard to look at you. You want to look brave and happy but I can feel you are hurt. You don’t understand that you are not responsible for the departure of our kids. Your daughter loves you. My children like you a lot! They all had to leave us due to their obligations.
We will be together soon and you will have all duties of the captain you want to be.
I am happy we have time just for each other. We need to know each other and we need to learn to live in our small household. I will try to send your hard thoughts way.
I love you very much!
Kisses and some more kisses!
Maria
… hey M …
… what an lousy captain I am … I lost my crew … I am not sure what happened but all of a sudden we are alone on our ship …
… I love spending time with you but I was prepared to be surrounded by our children … they disappeared over night and I am a bit lost …
… I hope everything is really a coincidence and it is not connected with me being a lousy captain …
… at least I am good enough for you …
… I hope our children will come to visit us very soon again …
… love you …
… your lousy captain …
L
Dear Leon!
It was a great time with our children but I am very happy that we have our house just for us now. We are sailing in calm waters and I want to enjoy this with you and you only for some time.
I love them too but we haven’t had much time for us in the last few months so I would like to be happy couple with no thoughts on anyone else for a while.
I am planning so much little nice things to spoil you!
I am happy happy happy!
I love you very much!
Kisses and some more kisses!
Maria
… hey M …
… as I captain of our house – as you named me – I have not so much work to do …
… our children are so great and I am happy that they all stayed here for so long … and they want to be with us for another month … I have never spent so much time with my daughter and I am happy she wants to be here …
… I am the best captain on the world …
… love you very much …
… you mean the whole world to me …
… stay well, stay you …
L
Dear Leon!
I am so happy you came home. I feel like a captain took over the boat again. I can let go of a heavy burden of responsibilities for our children. I can start to enjoy the company of all of you!
I am happy happy happy!
I love you very much!
Kisses and some more kisses!
Maria
… hey M …
… I am on my way home … I can hardly wait to come home to all of you but then last night I had this dream last night …
… I know I should not switch my feelings and emotions so lightly because of my dreams but they are so vivid and so powerful that I cannot do it any other way …
… in my dreams I was running to my home … all of you were standing in front of it and the sun was shining on you … all of a sudden a deep cracks appeared between us and it was growing deeper and wider … everything was being eaten by it … trees, houses, hills, cars … I stopped and was looking at all of you moving away … I was devastated and then I woke up …
… I am trying to forget all about my dreams … I am trying to fill myself with anticipation and happiness …
… love you very much … I can’t wait to see you all … in my house …
… you mean the whole world to me …
… stay well, stay you …
L
… hey M …
… I was afraid to come back home … all of you there … my house full of people when I am used to living alone … I love you and my daughter … I like your children very much … but … I am a selfish old man wanting to live my life with no big changes … I am a bit stubborn and don’t want to adapt to anyone …
… I had a dream last night … it changed my perspective … it opened my eyes … I have let so many people into my life this year and I loved the experience a lot … the fear of being surrounded by people is my oldest fear, but it is not a part of me anymore … I was so used to it that I forget to enjoy having all of you around me … last night’s dream reminded me of that …
… in my dream I was all alone on the top of a very green hill … no trees only grass … it was pouring with rain and I stood there in my underwear … I felt great but I missed something … on another hill not far away there was a creature moving in a very funny way … that hill was blessed with sunshine … the creature started to fly and it moved in the same funny way coming closer to me … sunshine followed the creature … as it came closer I realised that it was not a creature but a group of people I love … you, my daughter, your children, my brother, my parents and some other people that meant something to me in the past … you were so connected and danced so perfectly that you looked as one … all of you came to my hill, you brought the sunshine with you … I joined the dance and had the feeling that the sunshine started to come from me …
… love you very much … I can’t wait to see you all … in my house …
… you mean the whole world to me …
… stay well, stay you …
L
Dear Leon!
We are doing well. My children and your daughter found a connection the first second they met. The age difference is not an issue at all. I am happy and feel very light since all my fear flew away after the arrival of your daughter.
I look forward to sharing all the happenings with you. I wish you were here as at the moment you are the only part missing in this very beautiful story.
I love you very much!
I miss you!
Kisses and some more kisses!
Maria
… hey, M …
… I am coming home next week … also my daughter will spend some days with us … I am not sure how all of us will survive this days together but I am sure that we will … somehow … if everything is going to be well we have our future in front of us … I hope this is our path …
… be prepared that my daughter might come a day or two before me … I know you can handle the situation with all the fragility there is … mostly because of her mother who is not yet prepared to share her daughter with you … the new woman in my life as she thinks of you …
… I will come home with all patience possible … with all the love I can find inside of me for all of us … and with so many so good looking pipes I have made here … the last one is very true but I put it down for you to laugh a little and to send the stress away …
… love you very much …
… you mean the whole world to me …
… stay well, stay you …
L
Dear Leon!
I am happy you are enjoying your stay with your friends and that you are learning a new skill. I am looking forward to share your enthusiasm over your new pipes. It is a very special pleasure to feel your beautiful pieces of craft in my fingers.
I started to enjoy having my children close to me. We needed almost one week to get used to each other in this new environment. We talk about the life we have had until my divorce. We found a lot of very good memories. We talk about our new lives. Each of us has a complete different life from the one we have had in our thoughts long ago. But all three of us are overwhelmed with the turnout of all our lives. We still need to get used to all the changes and we are not prepared to share these feelings with anybody else. We are not ready yet for your return.
I know I am selfish and I act as someone who dictate the life of others but I think this is very important time for all of us. For you too!
I love you very much!
I miss you and I am happy you are not so close at the moment.
Kisses and some more kisses!
Maria
… hey M …
… every day away from you I miss you more and more … I decided to stay here for another week or two … my friend is an expert in a special pipe making technique and he is willing to show me and teach me this skill of his …
… since you have your children over for a visit it was an easy decision for me to accept his hospitality …
… I hope you enjoy your time with your two most beloved people on the planet …
… love you very much …
… you mean the whole world to me …
… stay well, stay you …
L
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