49 weeks after the storm M to L

Dear Leon!

I am happy you are not at home right now. My children came two days ago and we are still overwhelmed by each other’s company so we fight all the time.

They like my new home. They like your country your town and your house very much but they don’t like me in this environment because I feel so good here. They miss me a lot but they don’t want to tell me so. It is very intense time and I hope we will calm down before you come home.

I love you very much!

I miss you and I am happy you are not so close at the moment.

Kisses and some more kisses!

Maria

48 weeks after the storm L to M

… hey M …

… I sold some pipes … the pipeshow is a big success … it overwhelms me … they like my work and my ideas transformed into the wood … and they will enjoy what I made for a long time …

… I spend a lot of time here with my friends … my pipe buddies … I am so me in their company … it is the easiest way of living …

… it is harder than I thought it would be … living with you I mean … I love you but having you around all the time came too soon … it came by surprise and not my decision … it is not the way I imagined it to be but we will make it work … our love will overcome all the difficulties and we will live happily ever after …

… love you very much …

… you mean the whole world to me …

… stay well, stay you …

L

48 weeks after the storm M to L

Dear Leon!

It is a very strange and intense experience being in your town and in your house without you.

I like exploring my feelings, my fears and my possible future in a place you have lived in for most of your life. I can get in touch with myself and it makes me calm and happy. I miss you but I am happy to have the opportunity to be here without you.

Love you!

Kisses and some more kisses!

Yours for ever and ever!

Maria

47 weeks after the storm L to M

… hey M …

… it was so nice looking at you sleeping by my side in the middle of the night … I kissed you and you smiled … this is the image of you that I took with me on my trip …

… I hope you will have a good time without me next week … I am sad to leave you all alone … I am happy to have some days ahead of me and my friends …

… love you very much …

… you mean the whole world to me …

… stay well, stay you …

L

47 weeks after the storm M to L

Dear Leon!

Having you around and talking to you all the time is a blessing. Having said that, there are some issues that I cannot discuss with you. They are a bit painful for me and I don’t want to drag you into them.

This idea of writing to each other and not reading our postcards, just storing them in the box, is an ideal solution.

I miss my kids. I want to visit them more often but I have spent all my savings. I am stuck in your country and I cannot do whatever I want freely. I know I have a better life than most of the people in the world but I still feel restricted up at the moment. I hope my daughter and son will come soon to visit us that would be the a perfect solution.

Love you!

Kisses and some more kisses!

Yours for ever and ever!

Maria

46 weeks after the storm M to L

Dear Leon!

I like waking up with you by my side every day. You are the first person I see and that makes me happy for the whole day.

I like to go to the language school and be with my students. They are so full of enthusiasm for my country and my language and I am so proud to be able to give them what they need.

I like to come home and prepare a meal for us. I am thrilled when we do this together. And our slow meals with you talking to me, with you touching me, with you and your love for me in your eyes.

I love the evenings. We go for a walk and talk a lot. We hold hands. We cannot stand apart for more than an inch. Our need to touch each other all the time. And our lovemaking at night. This is the peack of the day!

Love you!

Kisses and some more kisses!

Yours for ever and ever!

Maria

46 weeks after the storm L to M

… hey M …

… I am starting to enjoy our life together … since you started work in the language school I can find time for myself and my pipes … I missed creating those lovely pieces in wood … I love to bring my ideas to life …

… I see sparks in your eyes … you love to be surrounded by people … you like to share your knowledge and ideas … but I see sorrow too … you miss your family … it comes out when my daughter is with us … I know you think you hide your feelings but I can read them to well … I know it hurts but I will spend as much time with my daughter as I can and I hope you can handle that …

… love you very much …

… you mean the whole world to me …

… stay well, stay you …

L

45 weeks after the storm M to L

Dear Leon!

Being here with you and beig part of your life – our life – is so new to me. I feel like a princess in the best kingdom on the world. A princess that is not worth her kingdom.

I dream difficult and strange dreams every night. When I wake up I am confused for a second or two then I realise I am in my new happy life with you.

It is great and I feel much better now but I miss my kids and my parents. I wanted to run away from them and now I miss them. So stupid and so strange. Me wanting something I ran away from. My love for you will give me strength to get used to liveing away from them. I can call them and write to them. And I can spend every day with you. Happy happy happy!

Love you!

Kisses and some more kisses!

Yours for ever and ever!

Maria

45 weeks after the storm L to M

… hey M …

… you coming into my life and living with me turned out to be really great … I don’t know why I was so afraid of your unexpected presence …

… our life is at the same time so new and so familiar … I hope it will carry on like this forever …

… every day is so predictable and at the same time brings so many new things … I like your boldness very much and I am happy you took the initiative to change our lives …

… love you very much …

… you mean the whole world to me …

… stay well, stay you …

L

44 weeks after the storm L to M

… hey, M …

… showing up on my doorsteps with all your luggage was at the same time a delight and the most scary act you ever did … I am happy and scared and annoyed …

… I wanted you to come to live with me … I love you and I was dreaming of us being together … but in real life everything is so different than in the fantasy … the gap between the two is scary … I hope it is just the first thought and that the days ahead will bring peace to me … I hope I am only afraid of the unknown and in a way anunexpected life you brought with you …

… I will put a box on the top of the closet where we can put our postcards instead of sending them to each other … maybe this will help me or even us both to survive … we will be able to write down some of our thoughts that are to scary and too uncomfortable to share with each other … and at the same time need to be said …

… love you very much …

… you mean the whole world to me …

… stay well, stay you …

L

44 weeks after the storm M to L

Dear Leon!

I am happy again. Much less happy than I used to be but happiness has started to fill my body from my toes upwards, slowly filling me up to my head.

I got my strength a back nd I am becoming again the Maria I know and love.

I packed my things and I am on my way to you. I needed only one day to follow you. I left my old life and all my family behind and I am starting my new life in your country with you.

I will probably arrive before this postcard will but I am sure you will love me living with you. I got that impression from you in the last days we had spent together.

My dearest one, we are starting our life together in a few days!

Love you!

Kisses and some more kisses!

Yours for ever and ever!

Maria

43 weeks after the storm M to L

Dear Leon!

I was so proud being with you as your dear one at our family gathering. You are a great person, a very good looking man and you were able to speak our language well. I fall in love with you again and again.

My family love you too. My daughter and my mum are talking about you all the time. It makes me happy. My ex husband loves you and hates you at the same time. I know him so well so I can read every feeling in his eyes.

I want to spend as much time with you as possible as soon as possible.

I know you are already on your way home to your daughter and your life. I will come to join you very soon!

Love you!

Kisses and some more kisses!

Yours for ever and ever!

Maria

43 weeks after the storm L to M

… hey M …

… it was such a surreal experience I am still under the impression I dreamt the whole event … you and your husband acted as well behaved as an old couple … like you have shared your life for years and are still doing so … at the same time he treated his new wife as a queen … and you acted as I am the greatest love of your life … your children and parents played along perfectly … like all of you rehearsed every move … like I was the only one in the audience and all of you professional actors …

… I love you and I played along … but I felt like as an alien at a royal dinner …

… I need a day or two to come to my normal reality …

… love you very much …

… you mean the whole world to me …

… stay well, stay you …

L

42 weeks after the storm L to M

… hey M …

… it was very nice meeting your daughter … I felt your fear for a second at first … after seeing the smile on her face you relaxed and let go of your feelings  … both of you looked happy … and beautiful …

… our day after that meeting was so great I almost forgot all the darkness you are facing … your daughter accepting your new life with me was the best cure for you … I am sure your son will be happy for you too …

… I fear our meeting with your ex husband tomorrow … not because of me … I fear he is still able to cast a shadow over you … but I will be there and fight that possibility … not in a bad way … with all the light and good feelings I can find within me …

… love you very much …

… you mean the whole world to me …

… stay well, stay you …

L